im sooo DAMN tired.
im sooo tired that i sometimes, maybe, forgot all the things that im supposed to hav for the upcoming competition tomorrow.
like a pair of red socks, which i think i said that i dont hav one juz nw during the prac,
and somethings else.....
i really dont know wat im supposed to do.
if i forgot this or that thing(s),
im in BIG trouble!
as in, REALLY IN BIG TROUBLE!

other than that, i almost want to SCREAM!
getting to tence to on wat im having and suffering NOW
hav no idea wat to do and the decision that i hav to decide.
ITS REALLY DIFFICULT!
one is my ______ and the another is my _______ and ________
(hav to find out by urselves)
this things i hav to choose one......

well.... i mus say tat _______ is fun to hang out and work on,
but sometimes, i felt 'left out' cause they are too close to him and im not.
and _______ is fun too.
can talk to my own language,
but i hav not been attending this prac and, for me, the ________ prefer my siblings than me.
i hav no idea.... REALLY!
yet, in _______, i 50% dont want and 50% want to quit.
wif this situation, i really left like 'left out'

but the _________, though im not that comfortable inside,
they are treating me like im one of them and i mostly happy being wif them.
again, somethings that i need to say about the BAD advantage in this.
SUFFER, SCOLDING, VULGARITIES AND SO ON..... THAT REFERS TO BAD!